fucking hell how did i not know about that? man this is really sad i used to talk to him everyday ever since he quit trem
we lost contact, however, about 1 1/2 years ago, and now i understand why cuz that was when he got sick.
man i really feel like a fuck now cuz i didn't even know about this, we used to get along so well and i didn't even bother getting back in contact with him for some reason...
this dude was awesome anyway, he spent like 5 hours helping me to sett up linux mint with me because back then i didn't understand shit and actually i'm still a linux noob. i really wish i had had the opportunity to stand by him in order to help him get through this easier
we've always led great conversations, he positively influenced the way i think about things and also showed me most of the music i listen to every day. i feel very sad at this point because not only have i lost a friend that i've never gotten to meet nor talked to in real life (even though it was my plan a few years ago..) but also because the world has lost another very intelligent person whose potential had yet to be discovered. i'd really have wished for him to have had some beautiful last months and that his sort of negative attitude towards life changed for good
i would have been interested in his opinion on that.
so, brandon, my very last words for you: if you can hear this in any way i would have stood by you in every way i could, i'm afraid i haven't gotten back in contact with you for whatever reason this was, maybe because i didn't feel the need to talk to you again or the other way around, or maybe because i was too selfish or lazy to re-add you on jabber. i highly regret this mistake now, i hope you remembered me only once during the months of sickness and wondered when i might show a sign of life. i also promise you to visit your grave at least once in my life, maybe then we can have some face time.
fare well and rest in peace.
PS: i won't pray for you because we both know you hated god and spat on thy religion (get the motorhead reference?
). i kind of adopted your attitude. haha and greet george carlin up there for me!